ACT II
[ Curtain opens on a street Dimitri is sitting on the sidewalk smoking a cigarette, “ You Found Me” by The Fray begins to play]
Dimitri: I found god
On the corner of first and Amistad
All alone
And smoking his last cigarette
I said where you been?
He said ask anything
Where were you
When everything was fallin apart
All my days were spent by the telephone
It never rang, and all I needed was a call
That never came
From the corner of first and Amistad
“ Lost and insecure,
You found me, you found me
Lyin on the floor
Surrounded, surrounded
Why’d you have to wait
Where were you, where were you
Just a little late
You found me, you found me”
Well in the end
Everyone ends up alone
Losin him, the only one whos ever known
Who I am, who im not and who I wanna be
No way to know,
How long he will be next to me
“ lost and insecure
You found me, you found me
Lyin on the floor
Surrounded , surrounded
Why’d you have to wait
Where were you, where were you
Just a little late
You found me, you found me”
Why’d you have to wait
To find me , to find me
[music ends] [sarah comes to find him sitting on the sidewalk and trys to console him]
Sarah: I know your sad about Derek, I couldn’t believe it myself
Dimitri: sad, broken, torn apart, it’s a whole skew of emotions that are too complicated for even the darkest poets to fathom
Sarah: that’s pretty deep, you know you should probably see a psychiatrist
Dimitri: theres no helping me
Sarah: you know at some point or another, we all lose the ones we love the most
Dimitri: its not that I lost him that haunts me
Sarah: it isn’t
Dimitri: I never lost him, I watched him slip away and all because of ignorance and hate, those bastards never gave him a chance and they hated us for what we were, because they didn’t understand , didn’t care, and they killed him, they left him to die, they tried to make an example out of him, and they got away with it because the people in this town think just like them
Sarah: well I understand and im here for you if you want to talk, what are you going to do now?
Dimitri: I cant tell you, because I don’t know myself
Sarah: well I hope you find your path
Dimitri: why do you think they chose him, and not me, why him
Sarah: I have no idea, but I know eventually they will get whats coming to them, just have faith that god will punish them in time
Dimitri: when?
Sarah: never can tell, maybe in this life or the next , but karma always comes back three fold
[ the lights dim slightly as sarah exits stage right, the scene behind disappears when Dimitri falls asleep and he sees images of himself and Derek when they were younger holding hands, and then he sees god]
God: you carry hate in your heart
Dimitri: they say your supposed to punish the wicked and reward the kind of heart
God: I don’t exist to serve the wills of men, it was never meant to be what transpired that day, it was their choice, I had no hand in it
Dimitri: you had everything to do with it, your supposed to be omnipotent, your supposed to be just, yet you never lifted your divine hand to stop it
God: I don’t intervene in life, I simply guide and persuade the kosmos
Dimitri: if you were anything like they paint you in that book, you would have never let someone so perfect, endure so much pain, why did you turn your back on me
God: I never turned my back on you
Dimitri: you could have done something its every bit as much your fault as theirs
God: you have hate in your heart to, it is sinful
Dimitri: its just, I have every reason to hate, and I hate you
God: ive done nothing
Dimitri: exactly, you let me fall in love with someone and then made me watch helplessly as he slipped away, you never touched him and healed him, you never stopped the ones that did those terrible things to him, you see all, you know all, you cant tell me you were ignorant to their intentions, you didn’t care, why do you do this, you let us wander the earth forever, you let us pray to you blindly , you let these great atrocities happen and you never take the blame, yet everything that is good that happens is supposed to be of your doing
God: I never asked to be God
Dimitri: I never asked to be gay, but I am, I live life accordingly, I never asked to be hated, I never asked to see the man I loved die in front of me, you made me powerless, you made me the way I am, they say you shape all human beings individually, and yet you make people who carry evil in their heart
God: you chose to be who you are , you chose to be who you were, its your choices that shape your destiny, not mine
Dimitri: I never chose any of my circumstance, but since you don’t hear my prayers anyway, you can turn a blind eye to what im going to do next
God: if you turn away from me now you will go to hell
Dimitri: and yet im already there
God: this is not the path
Dimitri: life isn’t a game to me, why am I here, for your sick amusement, whats the point of living a virtuous life in an unjust world, if those that do evil for their own enjoyment, can still go to the same place, and you don’t even stop the evil they are doing, I believed in you, but you never believed in me, well I don’t believe anymore, your not there and you never were, your just a figment of my subconscious, well I don’t have any guilt anymore
[lightning flashes and god fades, the world behind him fades back into reality]
[ the curtain closes and the scene changes to the Principals office, he is at school and doing paperwork at night , you see him open a letter from the sheriff, he takes out three hundred dollars, and puts it in his wallet]
Principal: you done good john, you done good
[suddenly, out in the hall he hears lockers slamming, he goes to investigate it but theres nothing there, he goes back to his office and locks the door, he turns to leave then realizes he left his car keys in his office shut, he hears multiple voices yelling, whispering, all manner of creepy things, he quickly unlocks the door to his office and the door closes behind him, Dimitri comes out from behind the door and the Principal turns around shocked]
Principal: what are you here for
Dimitri: Justice
Principal: you are breaking and entering
Dimitri: I don’t care
Principal: I will call the law
Dimitri: with what phone?
Principal: what do you want?, ill give you anything, money, ive got lots of it, ill give you anything you want just please don’t hurt me
Dimitri: get on your feet, don’t beg, you had your chance to do whats right, and you lied under oath
Principal: please God
Dimitri: god called in sick today
[ the principal trys to run out the door but Dimitri grabs him, he squirms a little]
Principal: why, why me, what did I ever do to you
Dimitri: you know I asked myself that same question
Principal: what do you want
Dimitri: I want my boyfriend back
Principal: surely there must be something I can do
[ they inch closer and closer to the window, Dimitri wraps the flag in the office around the principals throat]
Dimitri: you can admit what you did
Pricipal: I LIED I LIED, okay I never listened to that faggot, because I was to focused on the good of the school, it wasn’t right what I did, but I was acting out of my hatred
Dimitri: WHY
Principal: because it’s a SIN
Dimitri: wrong answer
Principal: no no no, god please don’t hurt me,
Dimitri: im not going to hurt you
Principal: thank god you scared me
[ Dimitri unwraps the flag from his neck]
Principal: see Jesus does conflict the hearts of the wicked before they do something terrible its just like the pastor said
[Dimitri shoves him out the window and walks away, the stage goes black]
Scene 12
[the boys are all going back to Josh’s house after a keg party and they sit there talking having fun and making jokes about how easy it was killing Derek how he squealed with every kick when Bradley goes to the bathroom, he vomits in the toilet, then gets up to wash his face he looks up and sees Dimitri behind him he trys to scream but as soon as he opens his mouth Dimitri rams his face into the sink he collapses to the floor,he sort of comes too, enough so he can talk]
Bradley: Hey man, I didn’t want any part of it, they forced me into it
Dimitri: don’t try for sympathy, you’ll get none from me
Bradley: [ starting to wimper] I never wanted anything to do with it, please I swear to god they swore they would kill me if I didn’t go along with it
Dimitri: you went along with it [ he takes Bradley’s hand puts it on the rim of the toilet, and slams the lids on top of it]
Bradley: OWWWWW
Dimitri: you know its not polite to scream [ he punches him in the face and brakes his jaw]
Bradley: I swear, had I known what they were going to do, I would have told the cops, when we got into the back of that pick up I was so drunk I could barely walk
Dimitri: Lies
Bradley: I swear
Dimitri: what about all the things you did before, huh, the names the violence did you put a stop to it
Bradley: No No I Didn’t , just let me go, please,
Dimitri: did you let Derek go, even after he screamed, after he bled, after he was to the point of dying, was it enough, was it
Bradley: please
Dimitri: don’t beg, get up and fight at least but don’t beg, you see it’s a lot different when you’re the one that’s fighting for your life now isn’t it
Bradley: im sorry
Dimitri: well im not [ he takes his head puts it in the toilet and drowns him flushing the toilet as he does it, he escapes through the window, and the other guys come in, they see Bradley’s body and call in the sheriff, who pulls him out but realizes that he’s already dead]
Scene 13
[ Dimitri goes back to the street corner where he was in scene 11, he shoots up heroin and falls asleep, where he sees Derek]
Derek: you know I wont rest until they al die
Dimitri: im making them pay just like I promised you I would
Derek: you need to get out of here when this is all over
Dimitri: theres no reason for me to be alive when this is all over
Derek: you know I don’t blame you for what happened
Dmitri: I could have saved you, but now im doing the next best thing, im avenging you
Derek: I wish I could touch you once again
Dimitri: I will see you once again
[ Derek disappears and then a small child approaches Dimitri]
Dimitri: whats your name little child
Child: Dimitri
Dimitri: what are you doing here
Child: I live here
Dimitri: what do you want to be when you grow up
Child: I want to be just like you
Dimitri: no you don’t, trust me
Child: what are you going to do when everything is over
Dimitri: it will never be over, you need to get out of here as soon as you can
Child: god will lead me everywhere
Dimitri: god wont be there for you
Child: god will always be there for me, im going to heaven
Dimitri: there is no heaven for people like us
Child: what makes you say that ?
Dimitri: because ive done terrible things
[ Dimitri wakes up to Sarah Shaking him]
Sarah: what are you doing to yourself
Dimitri: coping
Sarah: I know your messed up right now but things will get better
Dimitri: things wont get better as long as my work is unfinished
Sarah: Dimitri what have you done
Dimitri: that’s not your concern
Sarah: Dimitri you don’t need drugs to cope with your problems
Dimitir: yes I do, it wont be much longer now, and this will all be finished
Sarah: what will be finished
Dimitri: just something I have to do
Sarah: im taking you to a hospital you need help
Dimitri: your right about that
Sarah: are you okay you don’t look so good
Dimitri: im fine I just need another hit
Sarah: I think you’ve had enough
Dimitri: enough is never enough
Sarah: what does that mean
Dimitri: [ begins to sing “ tachycardia” by Dustin Poe]
“up the dosage I think im gonna flatline
My pulse is beating out of time
Can someone help me now
Ive been cut deep and im bleeding down
My head is reeling , my heart rates plummeting down
Kiss me, softly, and tell me, goodbye
I think im gonna die”
I have this feeling
Like somethings gone wrong
Skin is peeling
Ive been waiting everlong
Im in pain
I need a feeling of elation
Ive been waiting for hours
Where oh where is my medication
“ Up the dosage I think im gonna flatline
My pulse is beating out of time
Can you please help me now
Ive been cut deep and im bleeding out
My head is reeling, my heart rates plummeting down
Kiss me, softly, and tell me , goodbye
Oh I think im gonna die”
I know I cant stop
But don’t stop believeing
I wont pull through this
Right now im barely breathing
Suffocating, asfyxiating,
Well I need a jump start
No one can bring me back
Theres no electricity in my heart
Im in asystole
Its far to late for cpr
“ Oh Up the dosage I think im gonna flatline
My pulse is beating out of time
Can you please help me now
Ive been cut deep and im bleeding out
My head is reeling, and my heart rate is slipping steady down
Kiss me, softly, and tell me, goodbye
I think im gonna die”
Oh the epinephrine could you give me a shot
Keep the life support running, and the morphine hot
Oh my bodys trembling
The air my lungs just wont release
I have so much to still do ,
So kindly would you
Stick the IV in
And bring me back from my comatose position
“ up the osage I think im gonna flatline
My pulse is starting to climb
Oh no a false alarm
Theres no blood inside my arms
No way ill make it out
Wont you lie to me
Say you’ll miss me
Before you tell me goodbye
I think im gonna die”
Oh Oh up the dosage I think im gonna flatline
Hold me through the convulsions one last time
My head is rushing
With hallucinations I cant describe
Can someone help me, wont someone please
“ up the dosage I think im gonna flatline
My pulse is beating out of time
Can you help me
Ive been cut deep and im bleeding out
Kiss me softly and tell me goodbye
Because im going to die”
[music ends]
Sarah: you know Derek would have hated to see you like this
Dimitri: Derek knew I would be like this if he left me, I would expect the same from him
Sarah: why
Dimitri: because that’s what true love is, you give someone your all, and when they leave, they take with them every reason that you ever had for living
Sarah: Derek would want you to move on and be happy, but you wont be happy until you see him again in hell
Dimitri: it shouldn’t be long now
Sarah: do you really not care where your going after life is over
Dimitri: all I see is hell
Sarah: there is a heaven too you know
Dimitri: we all go to hell [ she leaves and “Mama” by My Chemical Romance begins]
Mama we all go to hell
Mama we all go to hell
Im writing this letter and wishing you well
Mama we all go to hell
Well now Mama were all gonna die
Mama were all gonna die
Stop asking me questions I hate to see you cry
Mama were all gonna die
“ well when we make our payments
We’ll let the fires just claim us
You made it sound so famous
We’ll never let you know
And when you go would you return to me my love”
Mama were all full of lies
Mama were meant for the flies
And right now theyre building a coffin your size
Mama were all full of lies
“ well when we make our payments
Well let the fires just claim us
You made it sound so famous
The things they never let you know
And when you go would you return to me my love”
Well mother told me warnings
About my legs and of my tongue
You should have raised a baby girl
I should have been a better son
If you could counter the infection
Maybe amputate or what
You could have been, is should have been
I could have been a better son
“ well when we make our payments
Well let the fires just claim us
You made it sound so famous
The things they never let you know
And when you go would you return to me my love”
And if you would call me your sweetheart
I’d maybe then sing you a song
But the shit that ive done with the spark of a gun
You would cry out your eyes if you saw
“ and when we make our payments
Well let the fires just claim us
You made it sound so famous
Well I never loved you oh
And When you go would you return to me my love”
Were all gonna fall ,
Were brothers in arms we march
So reach for the sky for tomorrow we die
And pay for the things that weve done
[ music ends]
Scene 14
[Sarah goes to talk to the prosecutor and he sits her down in his office]
Prosecutor: Sarah this is unexpected, I want to thank you again for being the only honest person to speak on Derek’s behalf during the trial, I guess you cant find justice in a small town anymore
Sarah: why do you think that is
Prosecutor: because people in this town fear what they don’t understand, as people tend to do, and they seem to have wanted to do nothing more than protect those among them that share their values, some guys get all the breaks, the football studs and the prom kings, the kind of guys that never gave anyone like Derek a chance to just be
Sarah: all I know is that Derek and Dimitri were the best people I know, and all I did was speak what I know is true, that Derek was a good person and one who would never lie, I don’t know if they did it or not, but they shouldn’t have slandered his name like they did
Prosecutor: everyone knows they did it, we had the perfect proof, but the judge, being like everyone else in this town, wouldn’t allow it because he didn’t want to believe that an all American guy like the sheriffs son could commit such heinous crimes
Sarah: what do you mean proof
Prosecutor: I have something for you to listen to Dimitri caught this himself, I held on to it because maybe one day the trial will be re-examined and even if that time doesn’t come within my lifespan, I can write about this in my book and tell the story of how these boys got away with murder because they were untouchable in this town
[ he plays her the audio file of the boys confessing in the bathroom]
Sarah: that’s why Dimitri is so angry
Prosecutor: I would be angry to, if I were in his shoes, I would seek retribution
Sarah: if you’ll excuse me
[ sarah gets up to leave]
Prosecutor: wait where are you going
Sarah: to find Dimitri
Prosecutor: why
Sarah: I have a feeling he’s about to do something terrible
[ scene goes black and changes to Dimitri in another dream-ish state getting ready to go kill again and finish everything that was started the music for carry on wayward son begins to play]
Chorus: Carry on my wayward son
There’ll be peace when you are done
Lay your weary head to rest
Don’t you cry no more
Dimitri: Once I rose above the noise and confusion
Just to get a glimpse beyond this illusion
I was soaring ever higher
But I flew to low
Masquarading, like a man with the answers
But my mind is ever closed
And if I claim to be a wise man
It surely means that I don’t know
Chorus: Carry on my wayward son
There’ll be peace when you are done
Lay your weary head to rest
Don’t you cry no more
Dimitri: Though my eyes could see I still was a blind man
Though my mind could think I still was a madman
I hear the voices when Im dreaming
I can hear them say
Chorus: Carry on my wayward son
There’ll be peace when you are done
Lay your weary head to rest
Don’t you cry no more
Dimitri: No More
[the music ends as Derek Reappears on stage as an apparition]
Derek: Dimitri, you aren’t like them, your going down a path from which there is no return
Dimitri: come tomorrow, this will all be a memory
Derek: I never wanted any of this for you, you cant fight my battles for me, death should have been your clue
Dimitri: they must be punished for the things they’ve done
Derek: they will be held accountable, in the end
Dimitri: I know, im seeing to it personally
Derek: you cant play god
Dimitri: there is no god anymore
Derek: your going to die for this one way or the other
Dimitri: I know, I love you, and I will be with you soon enough
[Dimitri walks offstage, Derek sings “who knew” by pink]
Derek: You took my hand you showed me how
You promised me you’d be around
Yeah huh that’s right
I took your words and I believed
In everything you said to me
Yeah huh that’s right
If some wasn’t three years from now
You’d be long gone
I’d stand up and punch them out
I know better
Cause you said forever, and ever
Who knew
Remember when we were such fools
And so convinced and just too cool
No no no no
I wish I could touch you again
I wish I could still call you a friend
Id give anything
If some wasn’t count your blessings now
For their long gone
I guesss I just didn’t know how
I was all wrong
They knew better
But you said forever and ever
who knew
ill keep you locked in my head
until we meet again
and I wont forget you my friend what happened
If some wasn’t three years from now
You’d be long gone
I’d stand up and punch them out
That last kiss, ill cherish, until we meet again
And time makes, it harder
I wish I could remember
But I keep your memory
You visit me in my sleep
My darling
Who knew
[full black out, curtain closes, brief intermission for five to ten minutes]
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